Feels like forever since Ive been over here even tho its been less than a week. I missed it but it was nice to be away for a bit. so, well... I did it! and i dont know about him anymore. glad we had that talk and i know it didnt really change anything for him accept how much he see's me but its changed for me. i have a new mind set and some times i love it yet others im not sure how i feel about it. I mean yes i love him but i think if i ever want anything out of him other than a friendship that i need to give him his space and let him work out the things he needs to work out. I mean, its just frustrating because he feels his head is on straight, which it is but i mean he is at a completely different mind set than i am now. he doesn't want anything but friends and maybe a bed buddy every now and then. which hey, with all the psychos around can you blame a guy? i mean really?!?!?!?! so yeah i am trying to get myself back. and hang out with friends i havent hung out with in a while and just be me again hanging out with everyone. im claiming my self back... or trying to lol ok well i got to go now ttyl!!!
xoxo