Feels like forever since Ive been over here even tho its been less than a week. I missed it but it was nice to be away for a bit. so, well... I did it! and i dont know about him anymore. glad we had that talk and i know it didnt really change anything for him accept how much he see's me but its changed for me. i have a new mind set and some times i love it yet others im not sure how i feel about it. I mean yes i love him but i think if i ever want anything out of him other than a friendship that i need to give him his space and let him work out the things he needs to work out. I mean, its just frustrating because he feels his head is on straight, which it is but i mean he is at a completely different mind set than i am now. he doesn't want anything but friends and maybe a bed buddy every now and then. which hey, with all the psychos around can you blame a guy? i mean really?!?!?!?! so yeah i am trying to get myself back. and hang out with friends i havent hung out with in a while and just be me again hanging out with everyone. im claiming my self back... or trying to lol ok well i got to go now ttyl!!!
xoxo

bored with a side of headache

hey yall! so, i have a headache. and i am bored. but i really have stuff to be doing. i think my headache is from the smell comming up when our furnace runs. the guy that is fixing it is here. and now it smells funny. ian said he would get out at 4 but now he says maybe 5. looking at my computer i realize that my battery is slowly dying... that sucks. it better not die on me till i get done doing my post. i just got my nails done and theu are pretty!!!! Tammy called earlyer and asked mom if it was ok if she brought over livi for a while. i m assuming that means that she has no sitter.... any who. i should prolly go get something for my headache. i havent had coffee today and no diet pills either... i should prolly get some cafeene... thats prolly what my headache is from. i might go walk the mall later... who knows... but ugh... its strange to me lthat all my friends are wither married, soon to be, has kids, or a combo of any of the previous sstated. its hard for many reasons... i mean if you have children, its hard, and you have to find a sitter or be quiet for naps or blahblah blah you all know kid stuff. but if your married or soon to be its tough for me too... its just poopie being the only "single" one of my close friends. oh caacaapeepeepoopoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok well i gotta leave now or ill die from this smell.